Hi titi..I miss you alot. I read the comment that you left me on myspace and it brought me to tears. I will admit that i slipped and fell and it was the worst that i ever felt in my life. I know now that i cannot live without him. It is only through him that i have life...without him i find myself empty and with no purpose.

So i am now attending a church called "my Fathers House"

heres the web site so you can go check it out... www.myfathershouse.cc

Wheneveryou get the chance just browse around and read the "reaserch Studies". and let me know what you think. I am also going to a bible study every tuesday night.  I have been learning alot there and the more that i learn the more my spirit streagthens. The fellowship there is amazing...you can feel true and genuine love from the brothers and sisters of the church. .I just pray to the Lord that him and his spirit guide me into all understanding. My desire and my hunger is to know him, know his word and do his will.

When my mom went to chicago and she came back with that revalation about that church that we were going to... and she said she wasnt going to go there anymore,it was a bit devastating for me because i truly beleived that, that was the place where the Lord wanted us to be. So when i stoped going to the church..little by little..i stopped everything else. I was at the lowest point in my life... i felt like i had nothing. But then i remembered what the enemy told me "that i am nothing and that i was never going to be anything" and when in my dream he was stopping me from my destiny telling me "that i was not going to leave him", and the reality check hit me..."What am i doing" I am giving into what the enemy wants...

He wants me to be home doing nothing. He DOSNT want me to go to church to praise God and to learn the word of God. He DOSNT want me to pray and be in communion with my father. He DOSNT want me to be in fellowship with Gods children. He DOSNT want me to sing for him or dance for him.

So i woke up on day told my self that i am going to church because staying at home is not helping me spiritually. I realized that God is not going to drop a church in front of me and that once he did that..then i will start going to church. I realized that if i didnt search for a place to worship and learn the word of God...i was never going to find one .That is just how it is. And since my spiritual life was dying i had to do something about it. Salvation is individual and i have to take care of mine. My desire to know God and his word on a deeper level is greater than anything in this world. It is what my soul longs and thirst for. So as for now i am attending this church,(which teaches scripture in its true and purest form) until God tells me to move. I feel that this is what God wants me to do and if i dont do it my spirit will die. I do not want to waste any more time because like you wrote to me....when that day comes i do not want to find my lamp with little oil...i want my lamp to be overflowing with oil.

 I have to move and be productive In God, his word and his will. Staying home is not productive and it is not the will of God. My crown will not be found at home. If i want my crown i have to search for it. I dont know what the Lord has for me...but what ever it is...i want it and im going for it. The desire and the passion that burns within me for him will not let me be still.

well titi this is the update....write back...oh yea and i want to be the first to say happy birthday!!! But 2morrow im going to call you so that we can talk. I love you and i miss you so much.

God Bless You