Christian:
Rock, Heavy metal, Rap Rock, Alternative,
Classical, Flamenco, Orchestral, Marching bands,
drumlines, etc...
I was in a non-christian band back then recorded 3
cd's though only 2 we got out for the public. I am
not sure why I joined the band but I wouldn't say
I regretted it either, though I knew by heart
that it wasn't what I was suppose to be doing
intentionally.
But I honestly think that I was suppose to
experience it for some reason. There was
something that I was suppose to learn from it and
see.
Though I do tell you that when performing shows as
I have, what is said about the drug use with some
of these musicians is true. And when it comes to
writing song lyrics, some of the songs can sound
so beautiful and heavenly but the mind of the
artist whom wrote it could've meant it to be
something subliminal, revenge, hate, or how
precious something is other then God.
Gonna stop for now.
If you have any questions please ask or comment.
LIBROS
Bible, Tim Lahaye's Left Behind series, John
Hagee, Jack Van Impe, etc...
PELÍCULAS y TV
Documentaries and movies based on true stories.
Favorite song at the moment which I keep playing
over and over.
Thoughts: This is what Im going through, and much
more, so... READERS I ADVICE THAT THIS IS NOT FOR
EVERYONE. If your offended, well, sorry, just stop
and leave the page and put me on block, I have to
let this out if not it'll end me. And I warn you,
do not hold any of this against me, not even in
the afterlife, this is a state that I have to let
out and other works that will try to discourage me
from God.
Short summary: I lost my brother recently, my
grandma before that then my cousin before that,
I'm jobless, struggling physically and mentally,
and need God everyday if not I'll keep on
thinking the way I do below until the devil has
deeply erased everything which I have to do with
God. This is tough for me, and I struggle this
way daily. Sometimes even 2-4 times a day, if not
all day having a like a huge debate in my head.
Read on.
Well, lately things have been very dissappointing,
worried, regretful, confused, and sometimes a bit
misunderstood. People say that it's best to let
out everything in the open from thoughts to
feelings, and on my behalf I only believe that it
would discourage there (your) faith which is not
what I intend to do.
I can only say this right now, that I just can't
put up with it anymore. I honestly wish the
rapture took place this instant, but I've been
saying that for the longest as well. And to be
honest I probably wouldn't even be caught up in
the rapture though I do have many faults still in
me. I've been praying and asking God to control
this body and soul, while I just sit on the
sidelines so that every action will be
correct.
So how's my faith with God? I believe in him, he
exists, creator of all, I love him. Though I do
ask him what my point of existance is, why I was
conceive and brought into the world, the same
world satan has been casted into. Why he does
these things I don't know, but I still don't
understand the fact that he can come into my
room, place his hand on me and send a bolt of
what felt like lightening nearly throwing me off
the bed, but not having been able to do the same
with my brother the morning he passed away. That
morning, I laid my hands on him to pray that
maybe a miracle would happen, but no, it didn't,
did I not have enough faith? It's been mentioned
that if we have faith the size of a grain of
mustard we can move mountain's, but nothing
happen that morning. When he was carried away I
still kept on praying with my bible in my hand,
but No, nothing happen. Where did I go wrong?
Were my prayers not heard the night before, or
the other night before, or the day that I
annointed his door with oil. What is it God, that
you want from me? You know well enough that I was
suppose to be the one on that strecher after all
the stuff I've done. He was a great brother, what
did I do so wrong that you took him from us?
Though what did he have to do with anything that
I've ever done wrong? Why did you take him
instead of me! You have taken me into a deeper
hole, will I be able to get out, Im not even sure
that I could even look to the sky without being
dissappointed. You knew exactly how tough
he had it, you couldn't even have the heart to
give him a better life, us a better life, after
all that stuff we've been through for your names
sake, this heritage, this state of finance, and
so on. I am tired of this, what do you want????
All "I've" pretty much asked for was a happy
life, being able to have a nice family, great
job, home, car, and to live debt free for once,
with my brothers and you on our side until an old
age. I even said you, that we could've been like
Moses and my brother as Aaron, but no. So what do
you want from me now? Would you like me to
continue playing instruments and complete this
CD? For what purpose would this be? I mean you
have many other musicians as alway's, even many
others better then myself, more experience and
talented yet Im stuck here after these 24 years
of playing drums through my entire life and a
great majority of it was for your names sake. I
know you don't need me, though I don't know why I
ever been given the breath of life. Oh Lord, why
is it that you know our future but to many you
have said to them that it would've been better
that if they weren't ever conceived. This is just
tossing another soul, your creation into the pits
of hell.
See, and the difference from me and Lot, is
that I'm not Lot, I am also not Jacob, and I am
definitely not you. I am me, another person,
another soul, and were all unique in our own
ways. Though we are still apart of you
But do as you wish cause my way's the majority of
times are wrong.
What do you want from me?
Is there something you need?
What is it?
Where do I begin?
Why not me?
I'm exhausted from all this.
Well, alot of people ask me, why I'm not married
or have kids yet at this age.
Well, here it goes, this is why:
I do want a wife, just a wife. Someone who can be
with me on my side someone to travel with, be
with, and will help me stay focus on God first
and vise versa with her.
But children...
Well... no, I don't want children and this is why.
I don't want them to see what I've seen, go
through what I've been through, and deal with
what this world offers. I mean, I wouldn't be
able to deal with the fact that if the child gets
lost and doesn't seek God that he/she will be cast
into an eternal damnation, so no. Children are
beutiful, lovely, and fun to be around with, but
the same time I get that feeling of being worried
about when they get older. I do not want to see my
own flesh and blood thrown into darkness.
Yeah, though I have gotten people telling me, well
that's part of life. Or, don't worry about there
future they'll be fine. I'd rather not risk it,
and what if I pass away before they reach a
certain age or there mother leaves. Then the
argueements between the parents and so on.
I'd prefer a fish or not even that, maybe a plant
or just a nano-pet.
But no children, I feel bad enough as it is.
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood,
but against
the principalities, against powers, against the
rulers of the
darkness of this age, against the spiritual hosts
of wickedness
in the heavenly places.
Ephesians 6:12 (Efesios)
My Experience Proving there is Life after
Death
After recently losing my grandmother, I was upset
before when I lost my cousin less then a year
ago, but when my grandma came to me in a vision
and said "Gracias Mi Hijo" and touching my face
feeling her touch, it just proved to me how there
is life after death. When I saw her she was in
white, young, smiling, she was free from the sins
of this world and the struggle she was facing
daily. She could walk straight cuz she use to
have a limp, talk well, didn't need her glasses,
she looked young like in her 20's or so. And no
it was not a dream, it was her, face to face,
hearing her voice and just thanking me in person
before my grandfather had gotten home about
30min's or so later with the bad news from the
hospital.
Though after I lost my cousin I kept asking God if
he had made it to heaven, though he did give his
life to christ just a week or 2 before he
departed this world. Two weeks before my
Grandmother had passed away I had a dream of my
cousin, he was smiling, happy, dressed in white
just like my grandmother was when I saw her. It
was awesome, that is all I have to say.
I know that experience of losing someone will
bring people down but for me, this experience
made my day or life, it proved to me and answered
many questions which I needed to know.
I do miss them both, but I know for sure where
they are, and how happy they truely are. Thanks
to God.
May 23, 2008~~~~~~~~~~
Well, I don't know what to say. First my cousin,
then my Grandmother on New Years.
The day before Mother's Day, two weekends ago on a
Friday. I had happen to lose a great person of my
life, my BROTHER. For the longest it took us
awhile to understand each other, but we finally
did get to know each other more and more. We were
different persons but the same.
Lord, wipe my tears, unbreak my heart, delete the
bad last memory the day I saw my brother,He was
great in heart, made his peace with everyone,
treated me better then what I treated him and
others. He had children Lord, he is needed Lord.
His life wasn't perfect and neither is mine, but
he was the one alway's bringing laughter in the
family.
Lord, I will always love you with all my heart. My
faith will remain strong.
Dreams, Visions and Experiences
Updated: June 3rd 2008
6 Months Ago
The room was filled with computers and printers as
if in a tight office
space. There were people of many types all nicely
dressed in suits.
Walking towards the back, to an open computer, I
asked the Rabbi
next to me if it was available. I began printing
the membership of the
church after unloading it from my zip drive. Then
decided to browse
the web and I spotted a hebrew bible pdf file that
I decided to print. I was
excited for my finding, that I immediately started
printing.
As I printed the Torah (Toraj), I scanned the room
to see what machines
were doing the printing, since there were so many
printers. I looked behind me,
and the Torah was printing, then to my left across
the room I spotted not
just one copy of the memberships but thousands,
and many more were
printing from the machine. Also from the machine
were other objects,
tools or utencils that were coming out from the
same printer as it
printed.
3 Months Ago
In my dream I had appeared like in a field,
standing within a mutlitued of people all facing
toward one direction. Across from us was another
multitude of people though they were
facing toward our direction. There appearance was
normal but looking dead, there clothes
looked torn and worned out. They seemed angry
though standing disordely and provoking
as if ready to attack. They were pale looking or
as if they have been beaten.
I then looked at ourselves, we were armed in full
armor. This armor wasn't like any armor
we seen. It was made of pure gold like, though it
shined more then gold. Our shield
was just the same, and so was the blade. The armor
glowed brightly like the sun. I looked around
some more and no one seem to have make a movement.
I kept observing the area, looking to
see if I recognized anyone. Then I spotted a woman
just a head of me in front looking around
curiously
as I.
Then afterwards I or someone not sure who, had
shot an arrow toward the multitude ahead of us
hitting
one and causing him to vanish.
Then I awoke.
3 Months Ago
We were walking toward a bus, one night, some guy
and this girl and I. They were walking
in front of me, both of them as a couple and I in
the back. I had and have no attraction to
her whatsoever, but what was unusual was that as
they were walking in front of me. She
looked back, and kissed me.
All of a sudden the guy whom she was with grab a
hold of his stomach, leaned forward
as if he were going to crouch, then all of a
sudden he vanished right before us. I looked
around and then it hit me, "The Rapture". So as I
stood there, I began to look towards the heavens
and what I saw was astonishing. The dark cloudy
sky was filled with Souls and Angels, the Angels
were holding each one of the souls by there hand.
It was a multitud cause I couldn't count how
many there were, but the sky was filled.
The Angels were of different types, some of them
had across there chest gold **ribbon** and
looked like Cherubims. There wings were thick,
white, and huge, I was able to see the
detail on the wings, how they moved just like a
doves, and it's white feathers. They were
all heading toward the same direction but there
were so many of them that they looked
like clouds. The souls had been transformed, all
dressed in white and were as white as the
clouds when the light of the full moon shines on
them.
Suddenly, the scene changed, I was in a place,
more like a huge room or apartment of some sort.
There were people of all types, some were worried,
others just partying hanging out, drunk,
argueeing,
and some alone in corners still shocked of what
had occurred.
I then began preaching to them, telling them what
had happened, describing it to them word by word.
Then one of them had got up and attacked me trying
to choke me in a headlock position hoping to toss
me to the ground. When trying to do so he stopped
suddenly as if he couldn't do it, then his anger
left
him. Others in the room mocked me, laughed about
what I was describing to them, as I preached and
warned them about what was up ahead. Then I
spotted a teen heading toward the balcony and
sitting
with her knees to her chest, on the floor. I went
out and spoke to her, and it seemed that before
the
rapture that I had spoken to her before that the
Lord could come back at any moment for us,
warning
her. Which my words out of my mouth when I spoked
to her, were "Hey, didn't I speak to you about
the rapture about a week ago?". After that moment
I just comforted her, letting her know that we
still
have another chance, and not to give up.
Jan 30, 2008
2 nights ago I had a short dream.
I was walking from my room to the kitchen, spotted
my little brother on my right standing near the
kitchen table. He then went his way
towards his room. I then looked at the table and
spotted a little bow of nachos from 7-11, before
I could say anything I looked up
a bit and a huge bowl had appeared. So then, I
decided to grab a piece of it, then I awoke.
They looked tasty too, with lots of cheese just
the way I liked them.
Anyway's, this dream had just became reality. We
are struggling at the moment, the little bowl of
nachos was the financial situation we are in, the
larger bowl was of a greater blessing heading our
way and I was getting a piece of it so it could
help with our financial struggle. Though today
this did happen my brother was in the same spot
as I dreamed and the financial struggle has been
taken care of. Though, in no time there will be a
greater blessing which will help us all to get our
new lives started.
Thank you Lord for the answered prayer's, visions
and dreams. I love you with all my heart.
Jan 17, 2008
Lastnight my dream was a bit odd. I was at this
cookout or party of a gathering of some sort. The
sceneries would change from my home to 2 other
places.
First room was filled with old friends, and some
other friend musicians I knew, it seemed as if I
were lookingfor someone. I then left the room or
garage which had been made into a hangout room
having a couch guitar, and etc...
One home was full of elders sitting around as in
having a conversation and one was behind a piano.
I walk in and they just simply looked at me, gave
a little smirk but there was no conversation. So
when
I went into another home after going out the door,
this home was filled with people my age, some I
knew others I never met at all. At the end of
this large living room walking through a tight
crowd there was a famous musician whom still
exist today. And outside across the street
looking though the window I could see his car
which was costumized and non of which I've ever
seen in this world. We didn't talk nor have a
conversation though, he would simply avoid me.
Then after awhile I went outside where people
younger then I were, some I knew in school, some
relatives and other were kids I never met nor
seen. So the ages probably ranged from 5 - 24.
One of the kids came up to me and asked if I knew
him, I for some reason responded as if I did know
him though I didn't but I thought I knew his
sister cause she use to ride the bus with me. But
still, I don't know for sure if she really had a
brother.
Anyway's, suddenly this snake appeared, and it
went inside this tube climbing slightly upwards
into it as if afraid.
The kid that I was conversating with saw it too,
he grabbed a torch lighter and lit up the tube
from both ends
desenagrating the snake.
Then a bit after, the famous musician was driving
around in his car back and forth showing it off
to an old friend, I walked to check it out and
then I awoke.
Jan. 20, 2008
This is another dream I had when I was around 7-12
years old.
I suddenly appeared near an overpass running down
the side of the freeway towards the
service road at high noon. I crossed the road and
ran behind the two white buildings which were
abandon. I then took a peek around the corner of
the building after catching my breath
and I spotted two men dressed in black with an ear
piece. They had stopped at there
place and spoke between themselves wondering which
direction I headed.
Then the dream changed and I was on an overpass
with my family, huddled
together holding each other tightly while we
looked south towards Dallas. There had
happen to be a huge earthquake, buildings were
crumbling apart, planes had lost
control because of the shift of winds some had
even flewn into buildings.
Many vehicles around us were in wreckage, smoke,
flames, and some abandon.
An overpass near downtown, where the earthquake
hit the strongest, had collapsed.
We all stayed together and kept praying that God
may spare us and protect us from this disaster.
Then I awoke.
Jan. 16 2008
About 6 month's ago a sunday morning at church, I
was standing in front of the kitchen
entrance facing east towards the main church
doorway. The light coming from the
window in the kitchen was getting bright, then
suddenly these two figures appeared.
One was of a woman sillouette holding the hand of
a little boy, silloutte as well, I couldn't
make out there faces, nor did they say anything.
They were just standing there with a
white bright glow around them.
Jan.14 2008,
I had a dream. That I saw myself laying on the end
of a bed on my left side,
and when I move in for a closer look to see what I
was doing, their was a baby boy.
The baby was laughing and giggling cause I was
tickleing his stomach. He had the
same skin tone as I and only wearing a diaper.
Strange cause I don't have any
children, and nephews are way too old to where
diapers.
Jan 15, 2008
My cousin and I were in her car, driving away or
trying to hide from
being tracked or found by the people or
government. Though I do
remember having the radio on hearing a voice of
some
dictator demanding that the citizens would get
involved on catching
those whom are unmarked with a reward.
We needed to make a phone call and get in touch of
relatives around the
area or so to see if any were still alive or well.
Apparently
the time I was in was when christians and rebels
were being persecuted for
not having the mark.
We pulled up behind this restaraunt which use
to be called "Royal's"
located behind a Shemrock gas station in Frisco on
four corners. Place
was filled with cars, so we had to park in the
back in order to use the
payphone, since the cell phones were being
monitored. But then I remembered
reading in the paper that AT&T had decided to take
away payphones
due to the rise of cell phone usage.
I woke up.
This dream occured 1 1/2 or 2 years ago.
Took place in the city of Frisco, where we use
to live by our old house were
these
government homes. My brothers, my little brothers
girlfriend, and I were in
hiding
in the old government home at the far south on 2nd
street where some friends
use to live.
The windows were boarded up with 2x4's from the
outside, but the electricity
was still running
in the place. The sun was barely setting, everyone
was in the kitchen. There
wasn't that much
furniture, just a table, an old entertainment
center where the 20" tv sat
and a few chair's, 2 in the
kitchen one where the dining area was and the
table. The tv was on but the same
thing was on
every channel. The emergency channel was playing
constantly, with constant broadcast
from
the dictator trying to bring peace to the world,
after some destruction had
taken place
and whatever else had happened. But I heard him
reveal himself stating he was
the Anti-christ
and that he was in control.
7 - 9 years old
My father an I were in the old monte carlo we
use to have. We had parked the
car
in front of the church. Which the building use to
be located a block and a half
away
from our home at a park in Frisco at the end of
first street.
We got off the car to unload the guitar from
the trunk for service that day.
The day kept getting brighter so then I looked up,
and behind my father I saw
Jesus on a cloud decending from heaven. I pointed
and shouted to my father,
"Ya vino Jesus", he looked up then I awoke.
Dream occured when I was probably 5 - 6 years
old.
Im at this old church we use to go to in Mc
Kinney. Then I noticed through
the windows that it got completely dark outside, a
cloud just covered the sky
making it into complete darkness. Then lightning
which was as nothing as we
see in a storm was bright and red after every
strike. It was continuesly thundering
wasnt the same either it was like a huge roar. I
felt the ground trembling and
the building shifted a bit which I then hid under
the pews because of the falling
debris. As Im laying there with my knees against
my chest, the ground shook
some more, the floor cracks and split open. The
only light coming was from below.
Through the cracks you can see the reflection of
the firing magma below. Then
I awoke.
LO QUE ME GUSTA
First thing first - Jesus Christ is my lord and
savior, Bible (word of god), Church, Music, Art,
Multimedia, Flash, Web Design, Photoshop CS,
Illustrator CS, Documenturies, Movies, Time
Magazine, Bilboards, Graffiti, Photography,
Games, Pool, Dominoes, Thinking, Surfing Web,
Rewiring electronics for the fun of it, Eating,
Sleeping,Showering, Root Beer, Milk Shakes,
Sundaes...mmm, Cars, Hot Rods, Low Riders,
Custom, Imports, Myspace, Dreaming, Brushing,
Winks:
Jan. 24, 2008
I had gotten home after a long morning, ate, then
decided to shower. While I was taking a shower
and singing (not funny, everyone sings in the
shower) suddenly a verse popped up in my head in
spanish. I'm like, huh? what verse it that.
But then I remember when I was in Wal-mart earlier
reading this book titled "When God Wink's", it's
about how God communicates with us daily with the
things around us.
For Example: Your at the grocery line checking
out, and happen to find out that you don't have
enough cash to purchase what you need.
Then suddenly after digging through your wallet,
pockets, etc... someone just happens to walk by
and give you enough money to pay for the rest.
So I went ahead and looked up the verse, and there
it was.
"I can do all things through Christ who
strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13
Their's my wink.
Answered Prayers
I'm greatful that my nephew has finally came back
into our lives after a parental ordeal.
Even though he is not related to us in anyway, we
have alway's accepted him as one of our own when
he was young. The first time we saw him he was
around 2-3 years old. Everyone in our family
enjoyed his company and quickly fell inlove with
him.
But all I have to say is that we are so greatful
of having him around again.
Ty God.
LO QUE NO ME GUSTA
"The biggest struggle we have in our lives is not
between others, but within ourselves."
I dislike the thoughts that are constantly being
thrown onto me of my pass from childhood to this
date. This is one of the key way's that satan
uses to discourage people. Sometimes the smallest
to the larget mistake that you have caused or vise
versa that someone has done to you in the pass or
a lie that hasn't occurred will be placed in your
mind. It feel's something like this.
Let's say you are watching television, a movie
perhaps your trying to focus on life, and
suddenly someone places another screen in front
of the current movie you are watching. And on
that screen is another movie that is trying to
take attention away from the one you are trying
to focus on. Then another screen pops up above
that one, and another, another, and it goes on,
but, you still see and understand the movie you
are mainly watching but it becomes harder to
focus on, more like a blur, nearly driving you
into a stage of frustration, depression or panic
because it feels as if the world has suddenly
fallen on your back.
And in some cases once you lose focus entirely of
the main movie, you are walking through life
blindly. Things start to happen, for example, you
are walking down the steps, you know that last
step is missing. You are constantly reminding
yourself in your head about that last step. But
no matter what you try to do you end up falling
because your main concern was immediately
redirected on something else.
Now let's say the next day you experience the
samething, but this time you were lucky a
stranger or friend was around you to hold you
back or warn you about the step.
Anyway's, this is one of the toughest challenges
many people have. It doesn't only take over your
lifestyle, also friendships, relationships,
belief etc... Though there is one solution to
this! It's to ask God to shatter those screens
(sins, problems,thoughts, etc...) so we may keep
moving forward and gain focus on life again.