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Some Thing's are too Good to be True

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29 años
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United States, Texas

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OCUPACIóN: Artista
¿ERES CRISTIANO?:
ESTADO CIVIL: Soltero
GéNERO: Masculino
ASISTE A LA IGLESIA:
EDUCACIóN: Universitaria / Profesional
MIEMBRO DESDE: 06/08/2007
VISTO POR ULTIMA VEZ CONECTADO: 08/27/2008 21:07:48
MI PUNTAJE: 9.50
Christian: Rock, Heavy metal, Rap Rock, Alternative, Classical, Flamenco, Orchestral, Marching bands, drumlines, etc...

I was in a non-christian band back then recorded 3 cd's though only 2 we got out for the public. I am not sure why I joined the band but I wouldn't say I regretted it either, though I knew by heart that it wasn't what I was suppose to be doing intentionally.

But I honestly think that I was suppose to experience it for some reason. There was something that I was suppose to learn from it and see.
Though I do tell you that when performing shows as I have, what is said about the drug use with some of these musicians is true. And when it comes to writing song lyrics, some of the songs can sound so beautiful and heavenly but the mind of the artist whom wrote it could've meant it to be something subliminal, revenge, hate, or how precious something is other then God.
Gonna stop for now.
If you have any questions please ask or comment.


Bible, Tim Lahaye's Left Behind series, John Hagee, Jack Van Impe, etc...

Documentaries and movies based on true stories.


Favorite song at the moment which I keep playing over and over.





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Thoughts: This is what Im going through, and much more, so... READERS I ADVICE THAT THIS IS NOT FOR EVERYONE. If your offended, well, sorry, just stop and leave the page and put me on block, I have to let this out if not it'll end me. And I warn you, do not hold any of this against me, not even in the afterlife, this is a state that I have to let out and other works that will try to discourage me from God.

Short summary: I lost my brother recently, my grandma before that then my cousin before that, I'm jobless, struggling physically and mentally, and need God everyday if not I'll keep on thinking the way I do below until the devil has deeply erased everything which I have to do with God. This is tough for me, and I struggle this way daily. Sometimes even 2-4 times a day, if not all day having a like a huge debate in my head.
Read on.

Well, lately things have been very dissappointing, worried, regretful, confused, and sometimes a bit misunderstood. People say that it's best to let out everything in the open from thoughts to feelings, and on my behalf I only believe that it would discourage there (your) faith which is not what I intend to do.

I can only say this right now, that I just can't put up with it anymore. I honestly wish the rapture took place this instant, but I've been saying that for the longest as well. And to be honest I probably wouldn't even be caught up in the rapture though I do have many faults still in me. I've been praying and asking God to control this body and soul, while I just sit on the sidelines so that every action will be correct.

So how's my faith with God? I believe in him, he exists, creator of all, I love him. Though I do ask him what my point of existance is, why I was conceive and brought into the world, the same world satan has been casted into. Why he does these things I don't know, but I still don't understand the fact that he can come into my room, place his hand on me and send a bolt of what felt like lightening nearly throwing me off the bed, but not having been able to do the same with my brother the morning he passed away. That morning, I laid my hands on him to pray that maybe a miracle would happen, but no, it didn't, did I not have enough faith? It's been mentioned that if we have faith the size of a grain of mustard we can move mountain's, but nothing happen that morning. When he was carried away I still kept on praying with my bible in my hand, but No, nothing happen. Where did I go wrong? Were my prayers not heard the night before, or the other night before, or the day that I annointed his door with oil. What is it God, that you want from me? You know well enough that I was suppose to be the one on that strecher after all the stuff I've done. He was a great brother, what did I do so wrong that you took him from us? Though what did he have to do with anything that I've ever done wrong? Why did you take him instead of me! You have taken me into a deeper hole, will I be able to get out, Im not even sure that I could even look to the sky without being dissappointed.
You knew exactly how tough he had it, you couldn't even have the heart to give him a better life, us a better life, after all that stuff we've been through for your names sake, this heritage, this state of finance, and so on. I am tired of this, what do you want???? All "I've" pretty much asked for was a happy life, being able to have a nice family, great job, home, car, and to live debt free for once, with my brothers and you on our side until an old age. I even said you, that we could've been like Moses and my brother as Aaron, but no. So what do you want from me now? Would you like me to continue playing instruments and complete this CD? For what purpose would this be? I mean you have many other musicians as alway's, even many others better then myself, more experience and talented yet Im stuck here after these 24 years of playing drums through my entire life and a great majority of it was for your names sake. I know you don't need me, though I don't know why I ever been given the breath of life. Oh Lord, why is it that you know our future but to many you have said to them that it would've been better that if they weren't ever conceived. This is just tossing another soul, your creation into the pits of hell.

See, and the difference from me and Lot, is that I'm not Lot, I am also not Jacob, and I am definitely not you. I am me, another person, another soul, and were all unique in our own ways. Though we are still apart of you

But do as you wish cause my way's the majority of times are wrong.

What do you want from me?
Is there something you need?
What is it?
Where do I begin?
Why not me?
I'm exhausted from all this.




Well, alot of people ask me, why I'm not married or have kids yet at this age.
Well, here it goes, this is why:
I do want a wife, just a wife. Someone who can be with me on my side someone to travel with, be with, and will help me stay focus on God first and vise versa with her.

But children...
Well... no, I don't want children and this is why. I don't want them to see what I've seen, go through what I've been through, and deal with what this world offers. I mean, I wouldn't be able to deal with the fact that if the child gets lost and doesn't seek God that he/she will be cast into an eternal damnation, so no. Children are beutiful, lovely, and fun to be around with, but the same time I get that feeling of being worried about when they get older. I do not want to see my own flesh and blood thrown into darkness.
Yeah, though I have gotten people telling me, well that's part of life. Or, don't worry about there future they'll be fine. I'd rather not risk it, and what if I pass away before they reach a certain age or there mother leaves. Then the argueements between the parents and so on.
I'd prefer a fish or not even that, maybe a plant or just a nano-pet. But no children, I feel bad enough as it is.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against the spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
Ephesians 6:12 (Efesios)






My Experience Proving there is Life after Death
After recently losing my grandmother, I was upset before when I lost my cousin less then a year ago, but when my grandma came to me in a vision and said "Gracias Mi Hijo" and touching my face feeling her touch, it just proved to me how there is life after death. When I saw her she was in white, young, smiling, she was free from the sins of this world and the struggle she was facing daily. She could walk straight cuz she use to have a limp, talk well, didn't need her glasses, she looked young like in her 20's or so. And no it was not a dream, it was her, face to face, hearing her voice and just thanking me in person before my grandfather had gotten home about 30min's or so later with the bad news from the hospital.
Though after I lost my cousin I kept asking God if he had made it to heaven, though he did give his life to christ just a week or 2 before he departed this world. Two weeks before my Grandmother had passed away I had a dream of my cousin, he was smiling, happy, dressed in white just like my grandmother was when I saw her. It was awesome, that is all I have to say.
I know that experience of losing someone will bring people down but for me, this experience made my day or life, it proved to me and answered many questions which I needed to know.

I do miss them both, but I know for sure where they are, and how happy they truely are. Thanks to God.


May 23, 2008~~~~~~~~~~

Well, I don't know what to say. First my cousin, then my Grandmother on New Years.

The day before Mother's Day, two weekends ago on a Friday. I had happen to lose a great person of my life, my BROTHER. For the longest it took us awhile to understand each other, but we finally did get to know each other more and more. We were different persons but the same.

Lord, wipe my tears, unbreak my heart, delete the bad last memory the day I saw my brother,He was great in heart, made his peace with everyone, treated me better then what I treated him and others. He had children Lord, he is needed Lord. His life wasn't perfect and neither is mine, but he was the one alway's bringing laughter in the family.

Lord, I will always love you with all my heart. My faith will remain strong.

Dreams, Visions and Experiences



Updated: June 3rd 2008

6 Months Ago
The room was filled with computers and printers as if in a tight office space. There were people of many types all nicely dressed in suits.

Walking towards the back, to an open computer, I asked the Rabbi next to me if it was available. I began printing the membership of the church after unloading it from my zip drive. Then decided to browse the web and I spotted a hebrew bible pdf file that I decided to print. I was excited for my finding, that I immediately started printing.

As I printed the Torah (Toraj), I scanned the room to see what machines were doing the printing, since there were so many printers. I looked behind me, and the Torah was printing, then to my left across the room I spotted not just one copy of the memberships but thousands, and many more were printing from the machine. Also from the machine were other objects, tools or utencils that were coming out from the same printer as it printed.


3 Months Ago
In my dream I had appeared like in a field, standing within a mutlitued of people all facing toward one direction. Across from us was another multitude of people though they were facing toward our direction. There appearance was normal but looking dead, there clothes looked torn and worned out. They seemed angry though standing disordely and provoking as if ready to attack. They were pale looking or as if they have been beaten.

I then looked at ourselves, we were armed in full armor. This armor wasn't like any armor we seen. It was made of pure gold like, though it shined more then gold. Our shield was just the same, and so was the blade. The armor glowed brightly like the sun. I looked around some more and no one seem to have make a movement. I kept observing the area, looking to see if I recognized anyone. Then I spotted a woman just a head of me in front looking around curiously as I.

Then afterwards I or someone not sure who, had shot an arrow toward the multitude ahead of us hitting one and causing him to vanish.

Then I awoke.


3 Months Ago
We were walking toward a bus, one night, some guy and this girl and I. They were walking in front of me, both of them as a couple and I in the back. I had and have no attraction to her whatsoever, but what was unusual was that as they were walking in front of me. She looked back, and kissed me.

All of a sudden the guy whom she was with grab a hold of his stomach, leaned forward as if he were going to crouch, then all of a sudden he vanished right before us. I looked around and then it hit me, "The Rapture". So as I stood there, I began to look towards the heavens and what I saw was astonishing. The dark cloudy sky was filled with Souls and Angels, the Angels were holding each one of the souls by there hand. It was a multitud cause I couldn't count how many there were, but the sky was filled.

The Angels were of different types, some of them had across there chest gold **ribbon** and looked like Cherubims. There wings were thick, white, and huge, I was able to see the detail on the wings, how they moved just like a doves, and it's white feathers. They were all heading toward the same direction but there were so many of them that they looked like clouds. The souls had been transformed, all dressed in white and were as white as the clouds when the light of the full moon shines on them.

Suddenly, the scene changed, I was in a place, more like a huge room or apartment of some sort. There were people of all types, some were worried, others just partying hanging out, drunk, argueeing, and some alone in corners still shocked of what had occurred. I then began preaching to them, telling them what had happened, describing it to them word by word. Then one of them had got up and attacked me trying to choke me in a headlock position hoping to toss me to the ground. When trying to do so he stopped suddenly as if he couldn't do it, then his anger left him. Others in the room mocked me, laughed about what I was describing to them, as I preached and warned them about what was up ahead. Then I spotted a teen heading toward the balcony and sitting with her knees to her chest, on the floor. I went out and spoke to her, and it seemed that before the rapture that I had spoken to her before that the Lord could come back at any moment for us, warning her. Which my words out of my mouth when I spoked to her, were "Hey, didn't I speak to you about the rapture about a week ago?". After that moment I just comforted her, letting her know that we still have another chance, and not to give up.


Jan 30, 2008
2 nights ago I had a short dream.
I was walking from my room to the kitchen, spotted my little brother on my right standing near the kitchen table. He then went his way towards his room. I then looked at the table and spotted a little bow of nachos from 7-11, before I could say anything I looked up a bit and a huge bowl had appeared. So then, I decided to grab a piece of it, then I awoke.
They looked tasty too, with lots of cheese just the way I liked them.

Anyway's, this dream had just became reality. We are struggling at the moment, the little bowl of nachos was the financial situation we are in, the larger bowl was of a greater blessing heading our way and I was getting a piece of it so it could help with our financial struggle. Though today this did happen my brother was in the same spot as I dreamed and the financial struggle has been taken care of. Though, in no time there will be a greater blessing which will help us all to get our new lives started.
Thank you Lord for the answered prayer's, visions and dreams. I love you with all my heart.

Jan 17, 2008

Lastnight my dream was a bit odd. I was at this cookout or party of a gathering of some sort. The sceneries would change from my home to 2 other places.

First room was filled with old friends, and some other friend musicians I knew, it seemed as if I were lookingfor someone. I then left the room or garage which had been made into a hangout room having a couch guitar, and etc...

One home was full of elders sitting around as in having a conversation and one was behind a piano. I walk in and they just simply looked at me, gave a little smirk but there was no conversation. So when

I went into another home after going out the door, this home was filled with people my age, some I knew others I never met at all. At the end of this large living room walking through a tight crowd there was a famous musician whom still exist today. And outside across the street looking though the window I could see his car which was costumized and non of which I've ever seen in this world. We didn't talk nor have a conversation though, he would simply avoid me.

Then after awhile I went outside where people younger then I were, some I knew in school, some relatives and other were kids I never met nor seen. So the ages probably ranged from 5 - 24.

One of the kids came up to me and asked if I knew him, I for some reason responded as if I did know him though I didn't but I thought I knew his sister cause she use to ride the bus with me. But still, I don't know for sure if she really had a brother.

Anyway's, suddenly this snake appeared, and it went inside this tube climbing slightly upwards into it as if afraid. The kid that I was conversating with saw it too, he grabbed a torch lighter and lit up the tube from both ends desenagrating the snake.

Then a bit after, the famous musician was driving around in his car back and forth showing it off to an old friend, I walked to check it out and then I awoke.


Jan. 20, 2008
This is another dream I had when I was around 7-12 years old.
I suddenly appeared near an overpass running down the side of the freeway towards the service road at high noon. I crossed the road and ran behind the two white buildings which were abandon. I then took a peek around the corner of the building after catching my breath and I spotted two men dressed in black with an ear piece. They had stopped at there place and spoke between themselves wondering which direction I headed.

Then the dream changed and I was on an overpass with my family, huddled together holding each other tightly while we looked south towards Dallas. There had happen to be a huge earthquake, buildings were crumbling apart, planes had lost control because of the shift of winds some had even flewn into buildings. Many vehicles around us were in wreckage, smoke, flames, and some abandon. An overpass near downtown, where the earthquake hit the strongest, had collapsed. We all stayed together and kept praying that God may spare us and protect us from this disaster.
Then I awoke.


Jan. 16 2008
About 6 month's ago a sunday morning at church, I was standing in front of the kitchen entrance facing east towards the main church doorway. The light coming from the window in the kitchen was getting bright, then suddenly these two figures appeared. One was of a woman sillouette holding the hand of a little boy, silloutte as well, I couldn't make out there faces, nor did they say anything. They were just standing there with a white bright glow around them.

Jan.14 2008,
I had a dream. That I saw myself laying on the end of a bed on my left side, and when I move in for a closer look to see what I was doing, their was a baby boy. The baby was laughing and giggling cause I was tickleing his stomach. He had the same skin tone as I and only wearing a diaper. Strange cause I don't have any children, and nephews are way too old to where diapers.

Jan 15, 2008
My cousin and I were in her car, driving away or trying to hide from being tracked or found by the people or government. Though I do remember having the radio on hearing a voice of some dictator demanding that the citizens would get involved on catching those whom are unmarked with a reward. We needed to make a phone call and get in touch of relatives around the area or so to see if any were still alive or well. Apparently the time I was in was when christians and rebels were being persecuted for not having the mark.

We pulled up behind this restaraunt which use to be called "Royal's" located behind a Shemrock gas station in Frisco on four corners. Place was filled with cars, so we had to park in the back in order to use the payphone, since the cell phones were being monitored. But then I remembered reading in the paper that AT&T had decided to take away payphones due to the rise of cell phone usage.

I woke up.

This dream occured 1 1/2 or 2 years ago.

Took place in the city of Frisco, where we use to live by our old house were these government homes. My brothers, my little brothers girlfriend, and I were in hiding in the old government home at the far south on 2nd street where some friends use to live.

The windows were boarded up with 2x4's from the outside, but the electricity was still running in the place. The sun was barely setting, everyone was in the kitchen. There wasn't that much furniture, just a table, an old entertainment center where the 20" tv sat and a few chair's, 2 in the kitchen one where the dining area was and the table. The tv was on but the same thing was on every channel. The emergency channel was playing constantly, with constant broadcast from the dictator trying to bring peace to the world, after some destruction had taken place and whatever else had happened. But I heard him reveal himself stating he was the Anti-christ and that he was in control.

7 - 9 years old

My father an I were in the old monte carlo we use to have. We had parked the car in front of the church. Which the building use to be located a block and a half away from our home at a park in Frisco at the end of first street.

We got off the car to unload the guitar from the trunk for service that day. The day kept getting brighter so then I looked up, and behind my father I saw Jesus on a cloud decending from heaven. I pointed and shouted to my father, "Ya vino Jesus", he looked up then I awoke.

Dream occured when I was probably 5 - 6 years old.

Im at this old church we use to go to in Mc Kinney. Then I noticed through the windows that it got completely dark outside, a cloud just covered the sky making it into complete darkness. Then lightning which was as nothing as we see in a storm was bright and red after every strike. It was continuesly thundering wasnt the same either it was like a huge roar. I felt the ground trembling and the building shifted a bit which I then hid under the pews because of the falling debris. As Im laying there with my knees against my chest, the ground shook some more, the floor cracks and split open. The only light coming was from below. Through the cracks you can see the reflection of the firing magma below. Then I awoke.


First thing first - Jesus Christ is my lord and savior, Bible (word of god), Church, Music, Art, Multimedia, Flash, Web Design, Photoshop CS, Illustrator CS, Documenturies, Movies, Time Magazine, Bilboards, Graffiti, Photography, Games, Pool, Dominoes, Thinking, Surfing Web, Rewiring electronics for the fun of it, Eating, Sleeping,Showering, Root Beer, Milk Shakes, Sundaes...mmm, Cars, Hot Rods, Low Riders, Custom, Imports, Myspace, Dreaming, Brushing,

Winks:
Jan. 24, 2008
I had gotten home after a long morning, ate, then decided to shower. While I was taking a shower and singing (not funny, everyone sings in the shower) suddenly a verse popped up in my head in spanish. I'm like, huh? what verse it that.

But then I remember when I was in Wal-mart earlier reading this book titled "When God Wink's", it's about how God communicates with us daily with the things around us.

For Example: Your at the grocery line checking out, and happen to find out that you don't have enough cash to purchase what you need. Then suddenly after digging through your wallet, pockets, etc... someone just happens to walk by and give you enough money to pay for the rest.

So I went ahead and looked up the verse, and there it was.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13

Their's my wink.
Answered Prayers
I'm greatful that my nephew has finally came back into our lives after a parental ordeal.
Even though he is not related to us in anyway, we have alway's accepted him as one of our own when he was young. The first time we saw him he was around 2-3 years old. Everyone in our family enjoyed his company and quickly fell inlove with him.
But all I have to say is that we are so greatful of having him around again.
Ty God.


"The biggest struggle we have in our lives is not between others, but within ourselves."

I dislike the thoughts that are constantly being thrown onto me of my pass from childhood to this date. This is one of the key way's that satan uses to discourage people. Sometimes the smallest to the larget mistake that you have caused or vise versa that someone has done to you in the pass or a lie that hasn't occurred will be placed in your mind. It feel's something like this.

Let's say you are watching television, a movie perhaps your trying to focus on life, and suddenly someone places another screen in front of the current movie you are watching. And on that screen is another movie that is trying to take attention away from the one you are trying to focus on. Then another screen pops up above that one, and another, another, and it goes on, but, you still see and understand the movie you are mainly watching but it becomes harder to focus on, more like a blur, nearly driving you into a stage of frustration, depression or panic because it feels as if the world has suddenly fallen on your back.

And in some cases once you lose focus entirely of the main movie, you are walking through life blindly. Things start to happen, for example, you are walking down the steps, you know that last step is missing. You are constantly reminding yourself in your head about that last step. But no matter what you try to do you end up falling because your main concern was immediately redirected on something else.

Now let's say the next day you experience the samething, but this time you were lucky a stranger or friend was around you to hold you back or warn you about the step.

Anyway's, this is one of the toughest challenges many people have. It doesn't only take over your lifestyle, also friendships, relationships, belief etc... Though there is one solution to this! It's to ask God to shatter those screens (sins, problems,thoughts, etc...) so we may keep moving forward and gain focus on life again.



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08/22/2008 21:11:37

bro............where r u???

ya estoy de regreso.....................te acuerdas de mi..............

jaja

dtb bro..........have a nice noche...



From: x_angel_x
08/22/2008 08:19:04

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